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This week I proudly announced that I was going vegan!

Whilst this is a decision I feel I have been building up to all my life, following 24 years as a vegetarian, I find myself now only 6 days in and rapidly regretting that statement.

I knew it wasn’t, and isn’t, going to be an easy process, especially as I am a cheese-aholic and have recently gained a bit of an addiction to corner shop convenience.  But this decision was almost taken out of my hands by divine guidance, as it’s a way of life that I now know is necessary to best support my physical and spiritual health.

Being an empath, and I don’t just mean an empathetic person, I feel things deeper than ever now, which extends of course to the animal kingdom.  The guilt I have been feeling as I connect without intention to nature, has been nothing short of unbearable.  I have been feeling their cries as if they were my own, which has actually been keeping me awake at night.  So ‘veganism’ is something that I have been taking many steps towards for some time; whilst beating myself up for every day that I haven’t been able to do it.  “I should have known better” I told myself as I took my new Bach mix this evening, containing Pine (for the critical self talk) and Chestnut Bud (for not learning from my mistakes).

Like everyone I have grown up with labels all my life, and I’m not just talking about the obvious ones such as my gender at birth.  Labels like ‘needy’, ‘sensitive’ and ‘difficult’ are just some of the negative tags that I’ve carried and fought against to date.  And no matter what I do to change or evolve, they just never seem to fully dissolve from the opinions of those I love.

By the age of 35, still a baby some kind souls might say, I have 6 labels attached to me that I know of.  To make matters worse, all of these labels come from a minority group, with half of which being recorded strands on the Equality Act.

I read a book by Mel Wells not so long ago called The Goddess Revolution.  In that book I remember being inspired by a section where Mel states (unquoted), that she chooses to say she tries to follow a plant based way of life when asked about her diet.  I could appreciate Mel’s unwillingness to put herself in a box clearly marked ‘vegan’.  As her decision to do so would have instantly placed a restrictive label upon her, and an imaginary bar that she would strive to reach for the rest of her life.  See, when we give ourselves labels, we give others the power to judge us and to criticise our choices.  When you’re at the start of any journey, and a flawed human being like everyone else out there, you just don’t need that level of peer pressure.  As chances are if you’re anything like me, then you are good enough at judging and berating yourself without the help of anyone else.

I have felt an incredible pressure on myself this week, some self administered and some no doubt from the critics I have out there just waiting for me to fail.  I haven’t felt at all liberated by my decision to go Vegan and instead I feel imprisoned and hugely dis-empowered.  If anything, this additional label will be one of the reasons I am likely to relapse and tuck into a chunk of cheese (mmmm, cheese) or a square of Dairy Milk!

I already feel angry with myself for adding yet another daily battle to my already difficult days.  A war that I no longer feel I can fight in private, as my announcement took the opportunity to tackle this huge life change day by day and at my own pace away from me.  I feel as though I have another lifestyle choice that is open to opinion, to scrutiny and a pre-conceived and timed expectation from others.  Oh jeez Ami, what were you thinking girl?!

Last year I had a new tattoo, and whilst sat in the hot-seat I witnessed a nearby conversation with a fellow ink junkie.  I remember hearing them discuss ‘bloody vegetarians’ who go around with these strong opinions whilst wearing leather Dr Martens!  I remember having to bite my lip so as not to say anything, as it just didn’t feel like my counter-argument would go down too well.  But all the time I was thinking ‘how dare you’ pass judgement on people who are trying their best to make positive changes in the welfare of animals.  For these Doc Marten loving veggies could well have bought those shoes second hand, or have every intention of replacing them when they get past a few months of their overwhelming new regime.  Perhaps they haven’t bought the handbook on ‘how to be the perfect vegetarian’, or perhaps they have only purchased volume one of the series.  You just never know what’s behind someone’s story, so should we really be judging others who are trying their best, and lets face it, doing far more than these meat eating tattooed dudes were!

What’s more, a few years ago , after having always been very distinctively ‘vintage’ in my appearance, I started wearing jeans.   Following a break up, one that was quite controlled in the length of my hair and the clothes in which I could wear, I met a friend for coffee wearing something that I guess was quite ‘masculine’ and plain from what she was used to seeing me in.  I will never forget that this ‘friend’ made a comment about how I didn’t look like me and she didn’t like it.  Given that following a break up always equals cutting off all your hair and trying to look the total opposite of what you looked like when you were with said partner, I was crushed.  Especially as I already felt I had lost my identity.  Right there became another label, the ‘vintage label.’  One that I am still trying to liberate myself from today, when I choose an outfit on my more ‘masculine’ days.  Oh, and all whilst being mindful not to look ‘too gay’…so as to be sure I really don’t offend (said with sarcasm!)

And that’s just it.  The moment you give yourself a label you are open to judgement.  You leave yourself wide open to ridicule, and find yourself having to justify everything you do that just doesn’t meet others strong opinions or expectations of who you told them you would be.

I have gone on a real journey with labels recently.  Rebelling against them and trying to find cruel acts of self-sabotage and defiance whilst I act from a place of pain or unworthiness.  My Indigo nature has wanted to revisit and re-brand all of these labels, even the basic ones such as gender and sexuality, and turn them on their head…just to piss everyone off and give them something to talk about if nothing else!  But all I have done is hurt myself as a result, and moved further away from the empowering points of why I shared these expressed characteristics in the first place.

I’m so fed up of being defined by the restraints of my health, who I fancy, what I eat and what gender I class myself as to name but a few.  And that’s not because anything has changed since I’ve given myself these labels, infact quite the opposite, but more so because I no longer want to live in a world of labels just to make other people feel comfortable about how to address me, cook for me or explain who I am to others in social situations.

I am not these labels.  They do not define me.  But they do seem to limit me.

So whilst I begin my new Bach mix complete with Centaury, which no doubt will help me reassert and redefine myself (much to those around me’s disgust); as of today I am removing my labels!

I do not want to call myself anything, unless it feels right to do so for me at the time, and I no longer feel the need to explain myself to anyone anymore.  My actions whilst I grow, find my authentic self and reawaken my truth mean that I am sometimes going to get things ‘wrong’ and I am going to go against all of the textbook meanings I have set for myself.

Some labels are inevitable, and I am ok with that.  In fact I believe that in the fight against labels we often end up giving ourselves more.  So my hope is that by loosening the restraints of my own identities and pigeon-holes then I will actually be able to live more in flow and more authentically.  Being a lot kinder to myself in the process, especially on the days when it’s an achievement just to be alive and to be me!  However she presents, whoever she kisses and whatever she eats!

Yours in love and light,

 

 

 

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Foreword by Ami Smart of Honeysuckle Healing:

It seems very fitting to welcome Starlight as my August guests, as it was a year ago this month that I first put faces to the name.

I met Katy and Kath AKA Starlight Soul Journeys (previously Starlight Meditation) in Glastonbury this time last year.  Having taken part in several of their ‘magic month’ webinars and online courses, all of which I credit my goddess awakening to, I nervously joined them on one of their soul journeys, having been drawn to my favourite place, Avalon.  This began a healing spiral of deep alchemic proportions and my love affair with Starlight.

For anyone who personally knows me or regularly reads my blogs and online content, you will know that I mention and recommend Starlight a lot, and that’s because I cannot say enough good stuff about them.  Their work is not for the faint hearted, but I credit so much of where I am, both personally and professionally, to these two wonder beings of light.  It is like no healing I have ever experienced, for it’s a shamanic fusion that triggers and gets to the very centre of pain and trauma…it’s certainly not all love and light, and there is nowhere to hide!  I also hadn’t experienced ‘portal sickness’, mass burping to release energy or indeed cried tears from such a depth until I met these two!  In fact, they often affectionately remind me that I said to them, following a Cacao ceremony at the bottom of the Tor, “why on earth would anyone pay for this shit!” whilst crying and laughing at the same time!  Of course, I jest, for I have signed up time and time again for their unique offerings, which says how addictive their work is.  I even completed my channelling course with them, as they are channels and spaceholder’s whom I respect immensely.

I think both Katy and Kath will agree that the three of us have been on a real journey of love, laughter, tears and triggering together, but personally for me they will always be two of the dearest souls residing in my heart, regardless of how long we choose to physically journey with each-other in this lifetime.  And they are guests whom I hope will always be in my life in one way or another, as they have taught me the importance of the shadow as well as the light and to honour my ability to keep it real!

This month I asked Starlight to join me to discuss the rise of the priesti, and oh my gosh I am so excited for this long overdue interview!  The priesti energy is one that is becoming an integral part of my light work, with thanks to the awareness from Starlight.  In fact I feel almost sheepish for understanding and respecting so deeply the diversity in sexuality and gender, but naively on my part not equating that fluidity to divine energy work.  I think it really is time that we individually and collectively bring this third dimension and duality to light-work.  I am really enjoying interpreting this energy through my own guidance and bringing this into the work I do at Honeysuckle Healing, but the experts and chosen light-bearers of this energy are definitely Starlight, and in particular Kath, who has taught me so very much.  Without further ado, I hand the reigns over to this formidable duo and I sincerely hope that this interview will resonate with the resting priesti within us all.

If you see the purple and green heart emoji’s pop up in my work, or indeed if you choose to follow Starlight after this interview, please know that this is the sign of the priesti, which is how Starlight have received guidance to represent this dual divinity.

August also seems a fitting  guest spot as I will be supporting Starlight at their Frankincense ceremony in Bristol this month.  You can find more details at the bottom of this interview.

The warmest of love and gratitude to the amazing Starlight for bringing the priesti to Honeysuckle this month, it’s a true honour to have you both and to talk about this fascinating subject.

Yours in love and light

 

 

 

August Guest Corner

Q&A With Starlight Soul Journeys

 

“The Rise Of The Priesti”

 

What is a priesti?

Both: A priesti is the gender of unity

Katy: A priesti is someone who is twin gender – they don’t really identify with being male or female, they identify with being both genders within one body whether that body is male or female externally 

Kath: The presence of both genders is within most people, however with priesti’s it tends to be at the forefront of their personalities and identities as opposed to somewhere deep inside

What made you discover the priesti energy?

Katy: When I first met Kath, I realised she was like a boy and a girl in one body and over the years we talked openly about the struggles and the joys of that.   Then in Ibiza 2017 we had a dominant female group that was referring to themselves as priestesses in ceremony and Kath said the word did not resonate with who she is.  The name ‘priesti’ came to my heart, along with the most beautiful energy and music accompanying it

Kath: So, I’ve always felt a bit different in terms of not fitting in to gender types and feeling almost angry and upset that they even exist.  When I was in Ibiza 2017 in a particular ceremony I was blasted with visions and information about the third gender – on experiencing that energy I can honestly say it felt like I’d come home (or I had a breakdown haha!)

Where do you think the priesti originates?

Both: Its roots are in Lumaria and beyond (pre-Atlantis).  It was recognised within all of the ancient spiritual cultures of the world and still is in many

Why do you think it’s important that we all connect to priesti energy?

Katy: We are in a time of ascending back into unity consciousness, and part of that ascension in our consciousness is the recognition of the unity gender, that gender is how we are going to bridge into unity consciousness 

Kath: For people that identify as priesti it is important for them to feel acknowledged and honoured in order to energetically fulfil themselves, their truth and their path

 

How can others reading this know if they identify as a priesti?

Katy: It is something you know within yourself, although this can take time to arrive at that knowing.  If you are questioning it; it is probably because being a man or a woman doesn’t feel 100% aligned with who you are

Kath: I wear it on the inside and the out, always have, so for me it was almost obvious.  But it has nothing to do with sexuality or pronouns etc this is more of an energetic experience that falls into alignment when you work with the energy

How can we connect to, or awaken, our inner priesti?

Katy: Just as all people have male/female within them we also have a priesti energy within us (however we identify).  To find the priesti energy within yourself, explore where the male and female energies within you meet, and the place where the meeting is harmonious is the ‘essence’ of your inner priesti (usually around the heart, higher heart and throat areas in the chakric system)

Kath: Sound really helps me do this and Frankincense

What are the ways in which we can support others who strongly identify as Priesti?

Katy: Being inclusive in your language of the presti gender (such as  not assuming ‘ladies’ is the correct way to address an all female group etc), and celebrating all of the wisdom, beauty and incredible healing that the priesti people and energy can bring to the world

Kath: Acknowledgement and acceptance

How does Starlight incorporate this energy or indeed help others to connect to it on your soul journeys?

Katy: Starlight channels the priesti’s regularly now, working with their energy, their music and also give a lot of guidance about who the priesti is.  We also heal the collective priesti wounds on our journeys

Kath: I am part of Starlight and these days, after previously taking more of a backseat role, I tend to work predominantly with the unity energy in ceremony, and so I think that naturally the energy is present within me when I am in circle.  We also use the priesti energy to help heal the masculine and feminine wounds and ‘blame’ that are so prevalent in our work

How important do you think gender or sexuality is in priesti identification?

Both: Gender/sexuality are fairly irrelevant, we have met priesti’s across the spectrum of all genders and sexuality

Can anyone identify as a priesti? 

Both: Just as a woman can identify a masculine energy within herself but she would still identify as being a woman, anyone can find the preisti energy within themselves.  But only a ‘Priesti’ would necessarily identify themselves as being one

 

Starlight will be travelling to Bristol to hold a Goddess Aphrodite Frankincense ceremony entitled ‘The Beauty In You’ this month.  Held at The Bristol Goddess Temple on Wednesday 29th August 2018 , 7pm – 10pm.  Please click here to read more about this amazing event and to purchase  your tickets.  I will be their Melissa at the event, supporting the loving and nurturing space they are providing.  It will be wonderful to welcome you all.  Limited tickets available, advance booking essential.

Starlight soul journeys is run by Katy (the Channel/teacher/right brain) and Kath (manager/travel co-coordinator/and everything else left brained).  Often referred to as the ‘rock and roll of spirituality’, Starlight is fundamentally about self-empowerment, working a lot with Shadow so we can be our authentic self.  Together they run online courses, 1-1 sessions, ceremonies, soul journeys and much more!  Click here to visit their website.  You can also join their online Facebook community here, where you can get free vlogs, meditations, guidance and tools about the Priesti and other Starlight themes like alchemy, connection, divine feminine healing etc.

 

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